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Today, I'm an English weird girl. The thing is that I'm not normal. U get me? I don't think so.

I have to confess I'm a bullied girl, especially for a boy. I don't know if I deserved it. But I swear that I dind't do anythong wrong with him. I DON'T EVEN TALK TO HIM. The worst thing is that I liked him, and he hate me. I said "liked" because not any more. But it still hurt. The injury is bleeding and I don't know what to do. I mean, I think he got a seriuos problems about his personality. I remembered that he treat me really well but then he just start to shout me and insult me. 

I'm not the kind of girl who stands alone, so the voice in my head said <<get out of here, now>>. Then when I arrived at home, my mom used to ask me "how you doing?" and my useless answer was "quite well". I used to fake a smile, then, at night I asked to myself. << Maiby I did something, maybe he just hate me, maybe I'm so ugly in the world that he just can't see my face everyday in school, maybe I'm a big problem that he can't control, maybe it's just his bad day, maybe it's just his bad mood, maybe I should even look at him, maybe when he saw me the first  day he said that I shoudn't exist, maybe I shoudn't exist, maybe... I don't know.>> 

And the voice in my head said << Don't cry, you'll be okay. just get out of his way everyday, so he can't hurt you anymore. Even if you see his a gentleman and he smile at you. Remember he's a beast and he will attack you anytime.  You just avoid him. He is the devil, you just escape from him. Can you do that?

I said << But... sometimes he treat me right, you know I like him>> <<But I get you. I'm masochist but I can't handle this>>

The voice said <<that's my girl>>

Finally I said << Thank you. No more tears>>